thank God im finally home. safe and still kicking! nyahaha. well, we just came back from malolos, bulacan. my mom and i went there to visit our relatives. actually, it's the first time that i met some of my relatives in the velasco side here in luzon because most of the time, i see those in the jalasan side. it was more enjoyable than expected, although my cousins, who were mostly older than i, were rather very reserved and quiet. but it still was okay because we drank a few bottles of beer and red wine and 'karaoke-d' until 3am. kuya joel and ate donna were the only ones i got to talk to. and thanks to kuya joel for installing an mp3 player-software in my phone. im still finding out a way on how to transfer my mp3's from the pc to my phone though. and i also have this nth-degree cousin, kuya eric, who looks like uchiyama from gokusen minus the blond hair. nyahaha. unfortunately, i wasn't able to talk to him, kuya louie (the really good-looking one who did nothing but play their ps), and kuya junel (sorry, im not sure of the spelling) because of the reason stated above. anyway, all in all, the overnight stay was okay and enjoyable. ;)

~O~

gackt's 'missing' is touching.

being happy for the one you love because she/he has found her/his happiness...

even if
it's not with you.

awww.

~O~

while we were on our way home, i noticed this 'hang ten' advertisement in balintawak. i think the model's the one who portrayed daniel han's character in the koreanovela 'wonderful life'. if you happen to pass by balintawak, tell me what you think.

~O~

yehey! my eyes are okay now. they're no longer bloodshot and i don't look like a drug addict. nyahaha. yehey!

~O~

isn't it just annoying everytime a nagging voice in your head starts to speak whenever you fail to do something good (at least in societal standards)? just this afternoon, while we were at the bus, there was this guy who was giving out pieces of papers stating that he and his family need your help financially so if you can give whatever amount blah blah. i really didn't know how and what to react immediately because my mom returned the papers as quickly as he gave them. and so, i continued staring at nothing while the nagging voice in my head started its sermon. i don't know if it's called conscience because while it was blabbing of the karma thingies taught during theology, it was also saying excuses on why it wasn't really wrong to not give the man some help. but i just told it to shut up coz i'd rather get sleep (i only slept from 3am to 630am) than listen to its unending blabbing.

was that wrong?

~O~

damn.

i haven't watched X3.

i haven't watched the davinci code.

damn it all.

on the enrolment, i am so going to
watch those movies.

share. :D

~O~

the pbb big four weren't the ones i expected. i think mikee and clare don't belong there. no offense to ateneans and natives of bukidnon but i don't think they've made much impact - a difference in kuya's house. clare's really a TH for me while mikee, i think, just got included in the big four because people want a love triangle between him, kim, and gerald. that's why i don't think they deserve to be there.

apparently, the voting results say otherwise. life.

~O~

i love you baby.
and if it's quite alright, i need you baby,
to warm the lonely night.

isn't it funny how people dwell on their pain without seeing the pain of others? i think as humans, it is an instinct for us to become selfish. it is natural drive for us to shield ourselves from the pains of this world and when we become pained, we are more likely to dwell on our pains without noticing that other people may be as pained as us. in the process, we become unknowingly selfish and inconsiderate. oh well. no use thinking about it anymore. it may not be our fault that we can't immediately see the pain of others. it takes a lot to become selfless in such a short lifetime lived in a selfish world.

~O~

thanks to arashi.

they cheered me up with their rendition of

cant take my eyes off you.

:)

I AM SO HAPPY!!

first of all because taylor hicks is the new american idol! woohoo! soul patrol! soul patrol! soul patrol! my God. isn't that the greatest? this morning, my friend was such a spoiler (you know who you are!) but anyway. haha. i had this gut feeling that taylor would win. congratulations to him! and his song 'do i make you proud?' is good too. hehe. woohoo!

second of all because i am finally cleared in the demented physical examination. yes sir! congratulations to mimai_baitganda for making it too. we saw each other this afternoon and she was also doing her laboratory examination. share lang po! :D

~O~

got soul?

what ruins a good lemon?

now, pardon me, especially those who know what lemons are. i guess, im just a wide reader. and besides, im not the only one. haha.

anyway, back to the question. just like any reading material, the sense of lemons are destroyed because of the grammatical errors or "misspellings" of the writer. i mean, i dont really expect all writers to be perfect in their writing (because i for one am very imperfect). but i guess, when you write something, especially if you're gonna publish it, a writer must make sure that it really has minimal errors. and the quality of lemons nowadays have become really low, i guess. not like the ones i read before (that reached 40++ pages) which really have a "story". now, most lemons are written just to satisfy the perversion of both the writer and reader. i miss the good ol' days.

sorry if this is meaningless. the ranting of a lemon reader and ex-addict.

my God. im going crazy because my eyes. they're really red right now that you might think it's conjunctivitis that's causing it. unfortunately, the redness is the only thing that connects it to conjunctivitis because my eyes aren't itching, "tearing" excessively, no pus-like substance produced - nothing, only redness. i searched in yahoo! for a clue on what's causing my eyes' redness. unfortunately, i have found nothing. please help me if you know anything that might tell me what's happening to my eyes. because the space in these letters is as close as i can get to freaking out. i've been drowning my eyes in visine for two days now. huhu. MY EYES!

~O~

nine inch nails' 'hurt' is cool.

i will let you down.

i will make you hurt.

nyahaha.

~O~

everyone in this household seems to be down with an illness. my brother has stupidity, my mom has flu, my aunt has colds, and i have UTI, anemia, and the 'redness in my eyes'. my God. only joking about my brother's (nyahaha). how can i go to uste and be cleared in my physical exam when i have these 'sicknesses' bothering me? huhu.

~O~

anyone who's opinionated and open-minded (yes, both are required) visit http://missingpoints.livejournal.com/. okie? it's a "blog" by a good friend of my kuya's, mr. patrick salamat. go lang. and you'll find out why i said opinionated and open-minded. :D

~O~

just a question (and please answer truthfully): why do you think men subject themselves to marital infidelity? please, please. i need your opinions for a paper. thanks!

~O~

to all my friendly friends:

textmates, chatmates, and the like.

i may be non-existent for the next few days.

IF my diseases don't leave me alone.

can you believe it? another blog early in the morning. haha. actually, i was planning to blog last night but my head was just throbbing unbearably, my eyes couldn't stand radiation. and there's something new again. i've actually typed this in notepad first before posting here in blogger. why? thankfully i had the instinct to call tri-isys first and i found out that i only have 0 hours, 37 minutes, and 56 seconds in my internet card credits. haha. anyway, i'll be really fast online. im gonna stretch that 37 minutes to about 3 days. nyahahaha.

~O~

damn. i just found out that we won't be able to enrol unless we're cleared in the physical exam. my God. damn UTI. and damn ANEMIA. huhu. my meds (whose prices are sky-high) are really mandatory. im still looking for alternatives so that i can have the antibiotics for a lesser price. life, life, life. my mom's so gonna give me the evil eye, again. and of course, the sermon about not taking care of myself and stuff would come, again. damn.

~O~

gackt's mirror is cool.

really, really cool.

:D

~O~

everyone around me seems to find and have relationships. and whenever they find out that i dont have one, they become really surprised and i dont know why. oh well. maybe it's all in their perception of me. but as most of my college friends know, i am very much happy being single with an uncommitted, free, and uncomplicated life. it's actually really great you know. although it may get lonely once in a while. but it's no big. i mean, through being single i can appreciate more of what i am and what i have. and the feeling's just great. i can flirt, i can work, i can do whatever i want without worrying about a commitment that must always be taken into account(except for my relationship with my family which will be a different story).

not to worry though. i still intend to have relationships in the future. i just want to have the time for myself first so that i'd be really ready for another relationship. making mistakes does teach you a lesson or two but it burns you out eventually. maybe that's what happened to me. and the next time, i have assured myself, that i'd make it work out, be happy, and make my partner happy too. and if possible, i'll make it really last. as in last.

~O~

filipino catholicism is just annoying sometimes. they tend to be really exaggerated especially when it comes to controversies regarding the church. i mean, hello?? the da vinci code is just a movie. and i think columbia pictures did make it clear that the movie is a version of the book which is FICTION - created by the wonderful imagination of dan brown. besides, faith, like other things in this little world of ours is subjective. one cannot control what another WANTS to believe in. they're just too paranoid because the church has skeletons in the closet. styupid, styupid.

reminds me of the question of one character in lost:

who are we to tell others what they can or cannot do?

~O~

patient: what're the pills you're taking?

dr. house: im in pain.

patient: aren't we all?

~O~

i was really surprised last night. bj and tyler were the winners of amazing race 9!!! woohoo! i thought they were eliminated. i really dont know how or why but i am surely and definitely glad that they won! woohoo!!! congratulations to them! in your face MoJo! joke. hehe.

and ladies and gents! taylor hicks is in the finale of american idol together with katherine mcphee. hehe. woohoo!!! he's so great. especially when he sang you are so beautiful. OMG. i swear, i'd faint if he sang that to me. nyahahaha. GO TAYLOR HICKS! SOUL PATROL!

this is something new. im blogging at 10:43 in the morning. haha. well, just read the cbox to find out why. :D

~O~

im getting extremely bored with this summer. i staunchly wish that the school year will start soon. it will only be until then that i'll be able to speak to some real human. im losing my nerve over the people in this household - my mom refuses to talk to me in a humane way (i wonder why? *rolls eyes*), my brother can't even start a decent conversation without sounding stupid to me, and my aunt's too preoccupied with her life. damn. the three closest conversations i can have with a real human are: 1.) texting my kuya (who's asleep most of the time because of work), 2.) talking to my dad whenever he calls (which isn't that often cause long-distance calls cost much), and 3.) chatting with my good ol' friends. my God. i wish i have someone real to talk to. not some people who choose to talk to some other people distances away instead of me, just an arm's reach away. duh.

~O~

i've been having a struggle lately. although it's not as shallow as eating or something. hehe. but seriously, i've been struggling not to return to my old self.

why?

well, MICO's OLD SELF is defined as the very immature, overly-dramatic, overly-emotional, overly-sensitive, and overly-pessimistic being who does nothing but dwell over her shortcomings causing her self-esteem to go beyond negative infinity.

now, for those who know me, you may say that im still like that but what i am now is what you call the "lite" version. hmmm.

if you were in my shoes, would you want to go back?

yeah. the answer is a big NO.

what should i do?

when everything seems too negative for me. not even hyde's music can comfort me (but believe me, it's the only string keeping me sane these days, aside from my bestfriends).

HELP.

watashi wa yushi o irimasu.

~O~

today, i went out with my bestfriends. we lunched out, had several vodka shots, watched poseidon, and overexercised our ability to use the public comfort room. i swear, i used the cr for eight times, and believe me, that's record-breaking!

i really had a great time with them. i think i wont ever have a dull time with them around. it was really fun that's why i didn't share my problem with them during the time we were together. i wouldn't want to ruin the day. and although im desperately wishing i could put the pain im feeling right now into words, i dare not to. it's kinda personal - too private, in fact - and it concerns someone who regularly checks in, in my blog.

but of course, i wouldn't have the courage to stop crying if not for my *selected* friends to whom i have shared my ordeal. thanks so much to those people. i appreciate it very much. you know who you are. it's nice knowing you guys are around. if you weren't i wouldn't know what i would've done.

oh well. it's time to move on.

~O~

poseidon sucks. i swear. that's why i don't recommend it.

why?

well, while the action sequences are okay and the acting of the characters were also okay, the movie lacked emotion. i think, although it is an action-suspense movie, i think the drama shouldn't be lost, not that the audience also appreciates an excess. like for example, the death of kurt russell wasn't really emphasized. i mean, the daughter (emmy rossum, also from the phantom of the opera) should have been given more emotion. i didn't really feel like she lost a father. i was looking for the armageddon type of drama (between liv tyler and bruce willis). i think i even felt more seeing valentine (this guy whose real name unknown to me) die. although, his death wasn't really given meaning *again* because this girl (elena, real name also unknown to me but i know she played as jennifer garner's sister in alias) who he helped wasn't informed of his death, not that she looked for him which was bogus. elena also died, which was, i think, the most emphasized because all the characters showed sadness during her death, especially that navy guy (doesn't it suck when you don't know their names?). the deaths of the passengers weren't even given importance, knowing that it was about a sunken ship which carried thousands of passengers. the captain's character wasn't also emphasized enough. i didn't feel the desperation to protect his pride nor the strength of character he should've showed knowing he was "captain". and his speech wasn't moving enough. stacy ferguson's (black-eyed peas) character as the "singer" was okay. good vocals and sexy delivery. but her character as, i think, the captain's lover or even just as a "friend", was just 'huh??'.

i think what the producers and the director (wolfgang petersen which rings a bell. can anyone share any of his past movies?) emphasized was how the characters survived. the ending also sucked because there were no "sharing" whatsoever of the lives of the survivors after the incident. it just ended when the rescuers found them, nothing more. if they were aiming for a cliffhanger thing, then they weren't succesful. no offense, but i think i'd prefer titanic's production.

my bestfriend's were ridiculing me for choosing such movies ('ang corny talaga ni b1!'), because this is not the first one. i was also the one who chose 'swimfan' back then which wasn't satisfactory either. haha. but we just laugh about it. haha.

~O~

stay away.

stay away from me jerks.

damn all of you.

rot in hell. that's where you belong.

THAT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE.

I hate you.

i HATE you.

i hate YOU.

people used to ask me why i'd refer myself as dev_il or devilisheretic or superman_devil. i'd always answer them that i prefer the evil from good because in this world - in the real plane - there's no such thing as a happy ending; good doesn't always conquer the evil. those who always choose the right path end up suffering while the evil gets the chance to feed on those suffering. don't get me wrong, i still believe in God and in His existence. let's just say im one of those "opened" already. i can accept life for what it is (though most of my friends would say it isn't obvious).

and just an hour ago, i truly proved that evil does exist. even in the most "holy" of religions.

i was cleaning up my in-boxes in gmail and in yahoo. there was this forwarded mail about an 8-year-old boy in Iran (or was that Iraq?) who was caught stealing. i can't remember what he stole but his punishment is something i can't forget. his left arm was run over by a car so it would be crushed. honestly, i tried to cover my eyes, expecting a gory and bloody picture. surprisingly it wasn't bloody but it became ironically more disturbing. i saw his face all crunched up in pain. it is a powerpoint presentation that's why the pictures were showed slowly. as if really depicting the slow and agonizing pain that the poor boy was in.

something in one of the slides made me think.

"...he was being punished in the name of Islam..."

no offense to Islam, but i think what they did was really screwed. and although i believe that pain does teach you a thing or two, i also believe that your punishment should be what is due you. i mean, there are a lot of bad guys out there who have done more than stealing but they are even allowed to visit their mothers or attend certain occasions as long as the judiciary would allow them (if you know who i mean). well, maybe we're not Moslems or something but the point is, it was an 8-yr-old they were punishing. did they even looked into what he stole or why he stole it?

my God. it's such an evil, evil world out there.

so be careful.

~O~

there was also one of those forwarded messages - chain messages, more appropriately - about being harmed if you don't produce 24 copies and pass it on.

i did pass 24 copies (actually, more than that) but that was purely out of the belief "walang namang mawawala kung maniniwala" and of course, courtesy to the one who sent it.

i don't really agree in the messages of those chain mails. they tell you that you'll die or someone in your family will be hit with misfortune if you don't pass it. i don't believe that the God that i believe in would just go punishing you if fail to forward the mail. because if that's the case, constantine would be so right when he said that God is a spoiled brat or something (i have rephrased it coz i can't remember). it's actually bogus, but you can't actually do something. it's become a part of the email life.

~O~

damn.

these are some of the reasons why religion is so cliche and tiring.

yesterday, "caloy" was just unstoppable. the rains were unending and so, my beloved room was filled with as much water as "caloy" could put in. my aunt and i (since we shared the room) had to clean the mess up before the time for el shaddai came. then, i also decided to throw away most of the scratch papers and arrange the useful ones. and so, i came across several letters given to me back in high school. recollection letters, retreat letters, "letters", and etc. it was pretty nostalgic.

when i read the letters, i recalled most of memories of my high school life. and several letters (from someone i wont mention) reminded me of one distinct experience (which happened during senior year) that i think i wont be able to forget. it was definitely painful, although i have moved on. reading the letters made some of the pain come back but there was nothing i could do. promises, both broken and kept, were contained in those letters; words that swooned me and blinded me from reality were there too. too bad, it was too good to last. but, as they say, it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

...that is why i didn't have the courage to read all the letters...

~O~

it's mother's day and this year is the only year that i didn't give my mom a gift. why? because experience taught me that giving my mom something material would just be wasting money. so i, instead, plan to just be the goody-good daughter which my mom expects me to be. haha. hopefully it'll just do the trick for the approval of my DSL. nyahahaha. joke.

~O~

i don't know if it's just idleness or im just the typical human which has a pair of X's for a 23rd chromosome. i am, again, itching to renovate this blog of mine. haha. maybe because i have finally been able to use corel draw. haha. but anyway, im still thinking about it. :)

~O~

because of caloy, i learned something from my kuya:

haha.

last wednesday, i was at my lowest. why? because, i lost a boyfriend. my iPocket got busted - it died a painful death.

if you've been reading my posts, it would be quite obvious who the culprit is. yes, you guessed it right. my damn younger brother did the hideous crime. now, i've got no one to accompany me at night, comfort me when i need it, and be present when im alone. i felt like crying and believe me, until now, im in a dangerously murderous mode.

and so, i had to suppress the anger. the light of san miguel was present and so, together with a friend, i tried to drown the pain in alcohol. but damn is it still so painful.

now i know how it feels to lose someone dear. and how it is not to be able to move on.

~O~

okay, enough with the drama and being over-emo. haha. actually, im quite over it. but im still on murderous mode.

anyway, my kuya and i (together with my abominable younger brother) went to cavite to visit my grandmom. it was fun, although we ran out of pizza (in less than 30 minutes upon arrival) and pasta. but nevertheless, we had fun.

of course, the talks i have with my brother are just fun. and the ones today aren't exceptions. singularity and relationships are of course the main topic and how 'love can make you do stupid things'. but i'll keep the details to myself. haha.

~O~

i am so happy that taylor hicks is one of the final three in the american idol! yehar! talk about amazing! i just hope...

but aside from that, im quite sad that chris daughtry was eliminated. i swear, i knew mcphee was going. but anyway. poor chris. he deserved staying more. apparently not for the american audience.

GO TAYLOR HICKS!!!

~O~

momo.

can you also be my pet?

:)

matsumoto jun.

i finally know why you remind me of jerry yan.

and that's because of meteor garden.

and hana yori dango.

haha.

here i am, again. hating the world which is hating me back. damn it. people are just too stupid and annoying for their own good.

~O~

i have had it. my brother is the worst brother, ever. everyday, he's growing more and more disrespectful not only towards me but also towards everyone in this household.

why?

first, he's made it a habit to answer back without reason. i mean, i answer my parents back but i only do that when it's necessary and when i know i am within reason. but definitely not my brother. no sir! he answers with the most annoying, most "pilosopo" answers! i got so pissed earlier that i was able to slap him. im not exactly proud about it because first of all, i don't like slapping people, and second, i just had to slap him to shut him up.

second, he brings out the worst in people. period.

third, he needs to be reminded of everything. my God. he needs to grow up.

but yes, i admit, i have to stretch my patience more. damn it.

~O~

friendship. i used to think most people knew what "friendship" is about.

how wrong i was.

gokusen's episode for today was about friendship. well, i agree with the teacher (sorry, i always mix up her name, so to save myself from shame, i called her "teacher"..haha..) when she said that people should not only be fair-weather friends. friendship is truly measured when it remains strong when challenges come or when the going gets tough and the tough gets going. i sure am proud of my friends.

but i also believe that if you truly are a friend, you should know and be aware of the limitations of the friendship. "Help" isn't always welcomed especially when you don't get the whole picture of the situation or when the person needs and wants to handle the situation by his/herself. being a friend doesn't necessarily require you to always "help" or come in aid of your friend. sometimes, you have to let them experience the hardship because people need to learn. and when you see that your friend needs your help, then that would be the time to give it to them. not that it should always be asked for; there's something we call initiative. hay.

so take note: there are things that are ought not to be meddled with. even if it concerns your friend.

~O~

watashi no inochi wa nikui desu.

sigh.

~O~

forgive me. im on ranting mode. again.

today, i was gorging over the chocolate mousse bought and given by jek. well, to state the obvious, it is one of my favorites. haha. it was just simply heaven that again, i almost forgot about my supposed-to-be diet. well, so far, i've already lost my targeted 10lbs. yippee! it's fulfilling that's why im maintaining it.

~O~

my ate ena had asked me to upload some mp3's into her memory card and i've discovered some very meaningful and wonderful songs. mary j. blige's 'give me you', tamia's duet with eric benet 'spend my life with you' and 'one wish' by ray-j. again, simple melodies with very meaningful messages.

but although i've discovered these songs, it's still incomplete coz i haven't downloaded another hyde song. but anyway. i just hope mom favors the dsl thing. she's just so reluctant to things like that. i can't blame her though coz she's the primary 'budgeter'. but i just wish her decision will favor us (my brother and i). keeping my fingers crossed!

~O~

ladies and gentlemen, i am just so happy that taylor hicks is still in the game! yes sir. he's one of the finalists for american idol and im truly, truly wishing that he'll get what he'll deserve. for those who can vote, please vote taylor hicks! hehe.

~O~

can anyone please explain to me why brothers are just so hard to handle? im sorry coz i've been blabbing about how irritating my brother is. but he's just so annoying. he brings out the worst in everyone, i swear. but anyway, congratulations to him. he has this award tomorrow. he's an honor, hopefully. coz if he wasn't, mom would have probably had his head. haha. now that's a thought.

~O~

ladies and gentlemen, congratulate me for i have finally found the friendster account of one of my crushes. haha. he's the A in A, C, P, and W. haha. sorry, im exaggerating again. my classmates know him and for those who know, quiet na lang kayo, awryt? haha.

~O~

that guy in gokusen is just so good-looking.

he reminds me pretty much of jerry yan.

haha.

yum, yum!

~O~

im kind of disappointed in pbb. nina was evicted when i know it's olyn who deserved to be. well, i'd prefer nina over olyn because olyn is just so tactless. nina's kikay-ness is tolerable for me. at least she doesn't go saying that other people's fathers are walang kwenta.

i heard aldred sing earlier! my God. his voice is honestly so much better than sam milby's. sorry for the milby fans out there. but just telling the truth. haha. =P

~O~

i have to correct myself. in one of my previous posts, i was questioning pacquiao's credibility to be included in the army.

one of my cousins told me that once you've gained honor for the country, especially in sports, you get to have a chance to have a position in the army. it's actually a privilege - an honor. anyway, not much of a deal now. it's not as if pacman's gonna go fire bullets in mindanao to defend the "state" from the abu sayyaf. haha. hope he wins against larrios, though.

~O~

i miss my kuya.

~O~

the da vinci code is just around the cinema's corners. hehe. im really interested in watching it and i hope i get to watch it with friends. hmmmm. why my friends? because i have no one to go with who's open-minded enough to watch it. everyone in this household holds on to the church's dogma as if their lives depended on it. anyway, it's a must-watch. for me, at least. hehe. (because honestly, i haven't read the book).

im sorry. a grammatical error.

MoJo cancelled everyone else's cabs.

hehe. sorry. im just so disappointed that bj and tyler lost. :D

damn. bj and tyler were eliminated from amazing race 9. damn you MoJo!!! my God. monica has to be the bitchiest bitch ever! to think you cheated because you cancelled the cabs of everyone else's cabs. damn you joseph and monica because, because of you my favorite tandem is now eliminated!

anyway, bj and tyler aren't sore losers. they accepted their defeat and still remained friends - bestfriends. that's what i really admire about them. no matter how trying the challenges are and how difficult the race is, they still remain as the cool hippies that they are. when one makes a mistake, the other understands. that's what real bestfriends do!

because of that, i've realized that i've got three great bestfriends. i can't say it's the perfect kind of friendship but amid all the things we've gone through - the tampuhans and stuff - we still remain the best of friends. thanks guys! i miss you three. i guess college life just doesn't allow us to be that close anymore but im still thankful that we find time to bond. i love you!

~O~

today, mom got the results for my physical exam. fortunately, no abnormalities for me. hehe. proves that im still human, after all. haha.

incoming thomasian nursing sophomores: on the scheduled date, dun ba gagawin ung isa pang set ng tests? the one attached to the recommendation letter. may payment pa kaya un?

thanksies!

~O~

pardon me. here i am, about to blab again, about hyde. my one and only hyde. hehe.

i just downloaded a couple of tracks from his latest album. the music's really good and the religious theme is quite questionable and i think there's something behind the album being "religious". because his previous album "666" is the reciprocal. anyway, the lyrics are good except you can't really understand them immediately when hyde sings it because of his diction. but i love him all the same. hehe.

and what surprised me too was that his lead guitarist and other musician are from nine inch nails, and his bassist from a perfect circle (a personal favorite too). lalang. im just amazed. :D

anyway, for jrock fans, his album may come as a surprise but nevertheless, it's still a really good piece of jrock. \m/

sorry. im in love with the guy. haha.

~O~

si tu croix, si tu croix, si tu croix

en toi.

today, i did the demented physical exam. my left arm feels like it wants to fall off from my shoulders because of that 50cc of blood taken from me. my God. there's also slight bruising. my muscles are so "maarte" today. but anyway, my arm muscle aches are nothing compared to what happened earlier.

mom and i went together to uste. we rode the fx which was so freaking microwave-like. the ride was so hellacious, i swear.

and to top that fx thing, the fx's radio was set in 90.7. it was so annoying the way the radioman said, "ako po ang inyong ka-talsik laway...monsour.." my God. who would want to be called "ka-talsik laway"? and when he played that song by air supply making love out of nothing, the woman in front of me just had to sing along with it! her voice was not that bad, actually. but the thing is, i really don't like singing in public (unless it's a public affair with the stage, microphone, and all), much less hearing other people doing it. i mean, no offense, but is it really necessary?

and then, when we got off in front of the city hall, all jeepneys were going to espana. when finally i spotted a dapitan-ust and got on it, my mom was just staring at me about 25 feet away. as if she wasn't seeing me. and then, she started looking for me. i really got annoyed because i had to get off of the jeepney again. under the scorching sun!

anyway, when we got in uste, the heat was sort of lessened. we immediately went to the hospital to take care of my physical exam. fortunately, i saw anthony who just finished his exam and i was able to ask for some info. i won't include a detailed description of the wonders i did in uste. only that i was stupid enough not to realize that there was a comfort room inside the laboratory so i really didn't have to go to carpark cr which had no ventilation whatsoever. i looked like an overworked carinderia employee when i got out; people were staring at me already.

what was exciting about the exam was the blood thing. hehe. when i got in, there was this boy carried by his father. blood was also to be taken from the little boy. he was really crying because i think he was afraid of the needle. the nurse and his father could not calm him down. i really pity him. anyway, when i saw my own bloog flowing into the syringe, i found it awfully..erm, cute. hehe. i really don't know but the thought was just exciting. hehe. don't mind me and my sick mind.

and so, after being consequentially subjected to the scorching heat of the sun and the mind-freezing cold of the hospital laboratory, we went for lunch. i couldn't believe it. i ate rice for breakfast and there i was eating rice again. my God. i was earning more calories than i was losing.

on our way home, aboard another microwave oven-like fx, traffic became terribly heavy when we got in tambo. it only lightened a bit when we got in multinational. imagine being stuck in traffic while being broiled to death. OMG.

anyway, we got off in SMJ. it's sort of my tita's despidida because she's headed to Dubai; her flight's tomorrow. we first went to penshoppe where i saw these shirts saying, "i will marry the vocalist" and "im in love with the bassist". hehe. nice one. reminds me of hyde and tetsu. hmmm. and there was this one that said, "im with the drummer". hmmm. hehe.

we also went to SMJ2 to buy some kikay stuff. hehe. O. M. G. im turning gay! not that it's bad. but i dont want to lose the fifty-fifty ratio between me being a girlish and boyish. hmmm. hehe. but anyway.

and so, i concluded the day with rice for dinner. again.

~O~

damn ABS-CBN. it's MMK already. where's wonderful life? damn them. how come they cut wonderful life? grrrr!!! not that im not interested in MMK's episode. it's just that i'd prefer watching wonderful life too. damn it.

~O~

i went to natio too. but unlike what i've promised myself, i wasn't able to buy a rice book (because obviously i haven't finished the obsession book) but i purchased, instead, another japanese language book. hehe. well, im really into studying it so i think rice can wait. :)

~O~

as soon as forever is through,

i'll be over you.

today, i did the demented physical exam. my left arm feels like it wants to fall off from my shoulders because of that 50cc of blood taken from me. my God. there's also slight bruising. my muscles are so "maarte" today. but anyway, my arm muscle aches are nothing compared to what happened earlier.

mom and i went together to uste. we rode the fx which was so freaking microwave-like. the ride was so hellacious, i swear.

and to top that fx thing, the fx's radio was set in 90.7. it was so annoying the way the radioman said, "ako po ang inyong ka-talsik laway...monsour.." my God. who would want to be called "ka-talsik laway"? and when he played that song by air supply making love out of nothing, the woman in front of me just had to sing along with it! her voice was not that bad, actually. but the thing is, i really don't like singing in public (unless it's a public affair with the stage, microphone, and all), much less hearing other people doing it. i mean, no offense, but is it really necessary?

and then, when we got off in front of the city hall, all jeepneys were going to espana. when finally i spotted a dapitan-ust and got on it, my mom was just staring at me about 25 feet away. as if she wasn't seeing me. and then, she started looking for me. i really got annoyed because i had to get off of the jeepney again. under the scorching sun!

anyway, when we got in uste, the heat was sort of lessened. we immediately went to the hospital to take care of my physical exam. fortunately, i saw anthony who just finished his exam and i was able to ask for some info. i won't include a detailed description of the wonders i did in uste. only that i was stupid enough not to realize that there was a comfort room inside the laboratory so i really didn't have to go to carpark cr which had no ventilation whatsoever. i looked like an overworked carinderia employee when i got out; people were staring at me already.

what was exciting about the exam was the blood thing. hehe. when i got in, there was this boy carried by his father. blood was also to be taken from the little boy. he was really crying because i think he was afraid of the needle. the nurse and his father could not calm him down. i really pity him. anyway, when i saw my own bloog flowing into the syringe, i found it awfully..erm, cute. hehe. i really don't know but the thought was just exciting. hehe. don't mind me and my sick mind.

and so, after being consequentially subjected to the scorching heat of the sun and the mind-freezing cold of the hospital laboratory, we went for lunch. i couldn't believe it. i ate rice for breakfast and there i was eating rice again. my God. i was earning more calories than i was losing.

on our way home, aboard another microwave oven-like fx, traffic became terribly heavy when we got in tambo. it only lightened a bit when we got in multinational. imagine being stuck in traffic while being broiled to death. OMG.

anyway, we got off in SMJ. it's sort of my tita's despidida because she's headed to Dubai; her flight's tomorrow. we first went to penshoppe where i saw these shirts saying, "i will marry the vocalist" and "im in love with the bassist". hehe. nice one. reminds me of hyde and tetsu. hmmm. and there was this one that said, "im with the drummer". hmmm. hehe.

we also went to SMJ2 to buy some kikay stuff. hehe. O. M. G. im turning gay! not that it's bad. but i dont want to lose the fifty-fifty ratio between me being a girlish and boyish. hmmm. hehe. but anyway.

and so, i concluded the day with rice for dinner. again.

~O~

damn ABS-CBN. it's MMK already. where's wonderful life? damn them. how come they cut wonderful life? grrrr!!! not that im not interested in MMK's episode. it's just that i'd prefer watching wonderful life too. damn it.

~O~

i went to natio too. but unlike what i've promised myself, i wasn't able to buy a rice book (because obviously i haven't finished the obsession book) but i purchased, instead, another japanese language book. hehe. well, im really into studying it so i think rice can wait. :)

~O~

as soon as forever is through,

i'll be over you.

mom celebrated *again* her birthday. three friends of mine came and my cousin and uncle came. it wasn't a feast nor a banquet but there definitely was - is - an abundance of spaghetti, afritada, and roast pork. fundador ran out and so red horse was bought; softdrinks were also brought in. and so, all thoughts of diet were thrown out the window. OMG.

~O~

what is it with little brothers that their lives wouldn't be complete without pestering other people? i honestly am *very* tired of my brother acting the way he does. it so sickening, annoying, and angering. grrr! why can't boys just grow up psychologically as fast as women?

this reminds me of one of the things that my socio-anthro teacher shared last semester. this is pretty chauvinistic, but anyway.

vegetation (plants, trees, etc.) are abundant and develop the fastest among species because they serve as food for animals. animals, likewise, are abundant and develop faster than humans because they serve, not only as food, for humans. WOMEN outnumber men by 1:6 ratio and develop faster because they have to serve men.

this, thus, insinuates that men are superior to women. this also serves as an *alibi* for the nth-timers out there - the men who are insatiably *collecting* women as trophies (jerks, in short).

as much as i hate to know and believe these, i can't really erase "reality". of course, it'll just be according to you if you believe it or not.

but one thing's for sure: it's so damn chauvinistic.

~O~

tomorrow, my mom and i are going to ust for my physical exam. that's why i haven't imbibed a single drop of alcohol. although my mom is not against me drinking, she requested me not to drink tonight because there might be some glitches in my physical exam results. damn. but anyway, who's to say i can't drink *after* the physical exam? hahahaha. *evil grin* (apple, im looking forward to friday night. *wink*)

~O~

how could i have missed it?

i just "discovered" that gokusen is being aired in GMA7. pardon my being a solid kapamilya. hehe. i was surfing the channels and i came across the final five minutes. fortunately, i was able to watch the first two episodes through a friend. hmmm. another program to add to my schedule. hihi.

abs-cbn has just started airing eternal love. out of interest, i watched the 1st episode. the storyline is okay but the action scenes are just so obviously fake and the special effects are unforgivable. i mean, they could've done better with the stunts and effects because the story is good. and while the lead female is very pretty, the lead male is... anyway, it's fairly bearable.

~O~

im missing harry potter. i hope book seven's coming soon. im really interested on how j.k. rowling will end it. hmmm. as for now, i can only guess if harry's gonna have a happy ending with ginny. sigh. sigh. sigh.

~O~

im missing anne rice. i haven't read a rice book since like forever because i haven't finished the zahir. but as soon as im on the last page of the obsession book, i am so headed to natio for another rice book.

anyone who has read christopher rice? would you recommend him?

~O~

lee ji hun.

YOU ARE SUCH A HOTTIE!

and what do you know. this blog published my supposed-to-be-unpublished blog entry. hehe. actually, i was supposed to update this blog two days ago. unfortunately, again, my internet card got figuratively burned out and so my entry wasn't published. and again, perhaps there wasn't a lesson learned because i wasn't able to save it in some other place. result: another blog entry gone and wasted.

when will i ever learn.

perhaps, today. hopefully.

~O~

two days ago, the news said that manny pacquiao was granted the position of sergeant in the philippine army. i actually thought - think - it weird that pacman was granted such position. i mean, the peace promotion thing is okay but to give him a position is just plain questionable. is he even qualified in terms of education?

this event is one of the occasions when i think our government is just totally screwed. some things - such as positions and stuff - are given out of utang na loob or plain fame. even when the qualifications are not met. my God. sorry, im not really that into politics but i think i know and i am quite aware of what's happening. correct me if i am wrong. but hey, that's just me.

~O~

yesterday, we celebrated my grandma and mom's birthday in advanced. my cousins, although not all, were there and my pamangkin. it was really enjoyable. we bonded and had fun. especially me because i got to spend time with my baby cousins! i missed being able to spend time with kids. yeah, i looked like their yaya. but it doesn't matter. i definitely enjoyed!

i also met my kuya pao's wife, ate che-che. she's also michelle. hehe. she's just gorgeous and witty. i think all michelle's are like that. haha! joke! hmmm. she's also invited us to their private resort in bulacan. we've agreed to come on the 19th and im really looking forward to it. although i intend to swim at night. i don't want to get a tan. (dream on jek, dream on.)

~O~

im very happy for my bestfriend, crislyn. she's finally learned a valuable lesson: to love herself above anyone else. that's on a positive note because most people mistake loving oneself for selfishness. it's more like knowing your limits. and knowing when enough is enough.

from my experience, in relationships, it should always be a give and take system. even when words are not said, you should make an effort to do your part in making it work. and if you find yourself in the situation where you are always the one who's giving, make the other party realize that you are not some 'katulong'. you ARE the GIRL/BOYFRIEND. and if you are the other party, be sensitive enough to know if you're partners unhappy already.

AND if you find yourself out of love with the person, nothing's better than being HONEST. it would be most wicked and cruel if you just leave the person hanging or leave without explanation. be courteous/respectful enough to know that the person you're leaving behind is human and has feelings. remember, what goes around, comes around.

~O~

i had another row with my mom. actually, i was the one who's mad this time. i was just sharing a chismax about kc concepcion being the mother of the supposed-to-be 3rd daughter of sharon cuneta. and she just had to react violently! like i was already killing the cuneta family. duh! i mean, i was just sharing. what was wrong with that? i was not forcing her to believe it.

sometimes, that's the problem with my mom. she just reacts immediately. my God. and mind you, she reacts violently. without holding back.

and i had a fault too. i lost my level-headedness. oh well. i guess. it takes two to tango. (huh? labo.)

~O~

aldred is cute. the perfect guy. but he just had to have that freaking inferiority complex. so he voluntarily got out of pbb.

i think of all the pyschological problems, inferiority complex is something i will never have. i mean, the occasional "humility" doesn't count. hehe. but kidding aside, i think it's all in the outlook. and the environment you grew up in. maybe aldred wasn't able to see the lighter side of things because he's been too absorbed in the darkness of his life. i don't know who's to blame but i hope he loses the complex soon. he wont be able to live life to the fullest with that kind of attitude.

~O~

pao.

thanks! hehe. i also realized that irimasu is technically for material things.

how literal could my translation get.

hehe.

anyway, thanks again.