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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
a series of unfortunate events.
5:36 AM
today, i was having another struggle: how to translate 'i need you' to japanese. i was confused between 'anata ga irimasu' or 'anata o irimasu'. durn. i was just translating it literally and i was already confused.
~O~
last night, i was pissed with this blog. i already encoded a good amount of blog but the publishing was just... damn it and to think i only have about 2hrs left on my internet card. unfortunately, i could not recover what i typed. because i was so pissed, i just tried forgot about it. fortunately, i did.
MORAL: save your work in some other place first to have a back-up file.
~O~
yesterday, i had the inspiration to start another short story. i really have this thing of writing/encoding the story alone. i already set the computer and gackt's love letter was already playing. i even put the headphones on so that all noise can be shut out of my peaceful, wanting-to-write soul. what was so unfortunate *again* was that my freaking brother had to piss me off *again* by pestering me to no end. and so, the inspiration drained out of me and all i managed to write were two sentences. deng.
~O~
bob ong's stainless longganisa is just hilarious. but of course, a lot can be learned from it. totally bob ong-ish. i remember reading the translations of the war worlds movie (from the pirated DVD he bought).
Soldier: Everbody down!!!
Translation: Altogether bow!
unfortunately, *again*, my brother only borrowed it (and already returned it) that's why i can't share more of the hilarious part. anyway, it's a must-read for bob ong readers and those writers who are in need of a good 'writer' story and of course, those in need of a good laugh.
~O~
i watched streaming videos of hyde (in youtube, as recommended by pao). the videos were just so cute! hehe. especially that episode in utaban where he first met his current wife. his torpe-ness was just adorable! OMG. haha. and the video of their concert where he says f*ck 10times was just like foreplay. OMG. im nearing obsession. and im liking it. ;)
hyde + saying f*ck 10 times = foreplay
~O~
anyone.
please tell me the translation of 'i need you' in japanese.
onegaishimasu.
domo arigatou gozaimasu! :)
~O~
recently, my player has been blaring magpakailanman by rocksteddy, cuida by sugarfree, and we belong by toni gonzaga. i know the last one's quite corny. but hey. it's cute. all three songs are simple yet very meaningful. hopeless romantics like me: it's a must-hear.
i swear. l'arc's lover boy is growing on me.
hmmm.
*ear reaching grin*
Monday, April 24, 2006
completely. you complete me.
6:32 AM
i finally had enough inspiration to start another short story today. but my stupid brother had to ruin it all. you see, i have this thing for writing/encoding stories that i pops into my mind alone. as in alone. but he had to come in my room and piss me off until all inspiration drained out of me. damn. because of that, i only managed to have two sentences. great. so much for wanting to write.
~O~
last friday, i saw this video of hyde in utaban (through youtube and pao) where he first met his current wife, megumi. i've watched it for the nth time now because it was so cute! hehe. his torpe-ness was funny. but i think it's really great that they ended together. they're just so cute. hehe. such a shame, rumors say they only have a son who i think is turning five this year.
~O~
anyone who can tell me when mtv asia awards in bangkok will be aired?
thanksies!
~O~
im surprised at myself. i usually finish a book in three days time but it's been two weeks now but i haven't finished the zahir. durn. i want to finish it soon. but i think there are other things which require my attention more. i mean, it's an interesting book but maybe so many concepts are put in at once that you have to race with the book. anyway, i'll be doing my best not to get exhausted.
~O~
congratulate me! i am currently self-studying (?) the japanese language. im getting the hang of it. im a little slow though. but i dont want to rush. it's pretty difficult studying it let alone by yourself. but anyway, it's the determination which matters. and thanks to all the books which i bought and the one given to me by a friend (jek) which are a great help.
~O~
to those fond of alternative rock. rocksteddy is so amazing! magpakailanman is so meaningful. it's simple but definitely meaningful. and call me corny but toni gonzaga's 'we belong' is amazing too. (now i sound like my old friend carla badi. she's fond of saying "'mazing, 'mazing!" hehe. share).
~O~
jibun o urandemo itami wa kie wa shinai.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
weird.
3:13 AM
my mom's definitely weirding me out too much. and has also been pissing me off with her attitude since last night.
i don't know if it's the menopause thing or it's just one of her untiring and usual mood swings. but i know one thing for sure: IM NOT LIKING IT.
durn.
yesterday morning, until the afternoon, we were okay. not that we spent much time together (because i went out with friends), but i know we were cool with each other. and then, she started acting strangely (she wasn't talking to any of us in the house) when we were watching the telenovelas. she became quiet all of a sudden like she lost her voice and ability to talk. i tried to start some small talk but all i got was a deafening silence like i was just talking to myself. it got on my nerves so i talked to my aunt instead. i thought to myself, she'll get better tomorrow.
but NO. she's worse today. we were both left here in the house (because my aunt had to do her medical chuvaness and my brother went to school) but it was as if we didn't know each other. damn. im so pissed off. what the hell is my mom's problem?
but anyway, it's not much of deal for me now. she's a grown up and she can act however she wants. besides, i act similarly sometimes. we are living in a democratic country. so the hell i'll care anymore. (please don't mistake this for insensitivity.)
sorry kung malabo.
~O~
anyways, hyde has an upcoming album to be released on the 26th, called 'faith'. so anyone who's kind enough to buy me one, i'd really appreciate it. hehe. as if. dream on mico, dream on.
~O~
the new telenovela called wonderful life is just so cute! hehe. i recommend it to those who love romantic comedies. hehe. and that chinito guy is just, whoah! (not the main character. the one named.. i can't remember. basta ung pinang-two time nung isang girl.)
~O~
kasalanan bang mahulog para sa'yo?
mr. hyde, im having a bad day. and it's killing me.
akin ka na lang hyde, please?
Sunday, April 09, 2006
one.
7:29 AM
my blog just turned 1!
i can't believe it.
i've been blogging for a year.
hehe.
to more years of endless and senseless rantings!
cheers!
the CSI effect.
6:58 AM
today, i cried over CSI. i shed i few tears for this particular episode because it was about forgiveness -- one thing i find hard to do and often takes a back seat when it comes to my personality.
in the episode today, detective jim brass was found to have killed (accidentally) officer bell. in bell's funeral, brass approached bell's wife to apologize. but before he even spoke, bell's wife stopped him and then embraced him. i was touched by this because it's not really easy forgiving the one person who has killed someone dear to you. and hurt you so much in the process.
honestly, i am not a really forgiving person. and i am amazed by those who can easily forgive. maybe because i've always been an overly sensitive person that one false move and my ego can crumble in an instant. and i have this tendency to just forget about the experience. that's why some of my friendships get irreparably destroyed and become more bitter as the wounds tend to rot than heal.
i remember reading in paulo coelho's the zahir that in order for you to heal yourself completely, you must first learn to forgive others' and, most especially, your own shortcomings. it may not be easy but it's the only way in which you can truly accept and go on with life.
and today, i remember, that this was precisely what fr. joel camaya, sdb pointed out to us in our senior year retreat. looking back, this was the way in which i was able to reconcile with my mom and rebuild our detroyed relationship as mother and daughter.
and just now, i realize, this may also be the only way in which i can heal the destroyed relationships in the past. im still on the process of finding a way of doing it but the bottomline is, i must forgive because i can't always be the bitter, immature person who always points out that it's them who can't move on without looking at myself.
that is why, the target for this year: LEARN TO FORGIVE, LEARN, and REMEMBER.
goodluck sken.
~O~
and just to share one of my fave lines in The Zahir:
FREEDOM is not the absence of commitments.
It is the ability to choose - and commit yourself to - what is best for you.
-Narrator
~O~
kasalanan bang mahulog para sa'yo?
Friday, April 07, 2006
to eat or not to eat.
7:41 AM
today, i was struggling over the lamest thing ever - WHAT TO EAT.
i was so agitated, honestly. i was pacing repeatedly in the dining room.
and because i couldn't decide, i settled on drowning myself in soya milk while watching sakura wars. damn diet. well, i really want the "diet" to work that's why i should sacrifice.
sigh.
but later, my mom took pity on me and gave me some of the kinilaw she made. it was heaven.
~O~
also today, i discovered wang lee-hom. he's a chinese singer. really good-looking. hehe. and good singing voice too. he's duet with lara fabian was touching and emotional. it's a must hear for hopeless romantics out there. :) and btw, he's also hosting this year's MTV asia music awards in bangkok, with kelly clarkson.
~O~
anyone who can tell me who was eliminated in american idol this week?
thanksies!
~O~
mahal kita. pero hindi mo lang alam.
kasalanan bang mahulog para sa'yo?
now, im standing above you.
trying hard not to tell you i love you.
and all that i want in this world is you.
if only you'd wake up
you'd know it was true.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
of the deserving and undeserving.
6:30 AM
I AM SO HAPPY! today, the names of those who can carry on to sophomore year were given. i was so relieved when i saw my name on the fifth paper. although i excessed (?) 0.02 points to be included in the dean's list, i still feel fulfilled because i passed the cutoff! yeehaar!!! thank you Papa God. You made it all happen! :) but i still feel bad though because not all of us made it. and to think someone undeserving did! i mean, if i were ti judge and compare their performances, i'd say those who didn't pass deserved to be admitted to second year than him - that guy who did nothing but cut classes and absent himself with the 'family problem' as a lame and sorry excuse. come on! i should've done the same thing then. that was simpler and easier! and he freaking passed. damn! where has all the objective judgements (?) gone? well, anyway, my classmates and i are planning to do some 'objection' on that. we're still on the process of thinking of ways to carry out the plan. because we can't just object without proofs and stuff like that. i hope those BSN 1-5 students who are reading this support the 'objection'. i just hope it'll be succesful. ~O~ kasalanan bang mahulog para sa'yo?
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
the crybaby cries. again.
9:23 AM
a lot of people have asked me why i took nursing.
months ago i would've easily said,
"because my mom wanted me to".
and just recently, i've realized this was the correct answer,
"because i want to be a pediatrician".
now, the question has changed into,
"why do you want to be a pediatrician?"
the answer is quite simple, really. and i've got two. (hehe) first, not all people know that i have a supposedly older sister. unfortunately, she died because her small and large intestine were underdeveloped and were not connected. i want to be a pediatrician because i dont want any other baby to experience what my ate experienced and i dont want any more parent to experience the pain my parents experienced when she died. second, i want to be a pediatrician because i love kids. i just want to be around kids, you know. and that love for kids took another level because val once bought this encyclopedia about pediatrics and it just fascinated me.
hope this answered your question. you know who you are.
~O~
another question has popped up.
"if you aren't in nursing, where would you be?"
if i weren't nursing, i'd say i'd be in psychology. or journalism. honestly, i took nursing because, aside from the influence of my mom, i considered the pros and cons. and psychology or journalism wouldn't amount to the pros that nursing would give me. call me money-driven but hey, in the world today, you can't really survive without money. that's why i chose nursing.
i remember my dad giving me the chance of changing the course i would take in college. he said i could take anything i liked. i was so tempted to say that i'd like to take journalism instead. but considering the abovementioned pros and cons, i said, i'll settle for nursing. then i asked him if he was to dictate what i would take, what would he have me take. he told me he had always imagined me taking law or engineering. well, i said, i'd definitely settle for nursing. then, we laughed about it. he told me it was my choice and he'll support me whatever i took.
hmmm. with all those, i've come to realize that maybe nursing is meant for me. but if by some unfortunate circumstance i'd not be able to reach the cutoff, i'd still take it in some other school because i've come to love it and maybe, just maybe, i like living on the medical field.
to pao (coz i can't place a comment in your blog): you've told me once in our talks that your heart is not in nursing. i know it's been very hard for you dealing with something instead of the one you love. and now that your dad has given you the chance to change the situation, think on what you really want to take. like i said, go for what you really want because that would make living life more worthwhile. you're one of my dearest friends and i'd hate to see you not able to do what you really want. whatever you decide on, dito lang ako, okie? full support. all the way.
and thank you so much for that inspiring comment you placed. thank you. :)
~O~
today, i read starstudio magazine. liz revillame's story was just inspiring. anyway, when i turned to the horoscope page, it said that there's an email or an e-card that would make my heart skip a beat. now, i just realized that it was pao's comment. hehe. thanks again pao. :)
